Christine couldn't believe that she didn't feel a bond with her newborn and wondered what was wrong with her.
Transcript
Now I just have I feel like I have regular mom anxiety like is he gonna have friends? [both laugh] Is he eating enough carrots like regular stuff? So yeah, it went on for a bit, but it always got better. And now I just can’t. I was always worried when I had that happening to me. Sorry. Just thinking about it makes me feel like I had such anxiety about if I would love him or have a connection with him.
I remember when he was a newborn, I thought I can’t believe I don’t like have this bond. Like what’s wrong with me? Like, I know somewhere. I love him. Why don’t I feel that like, right? I don’t even feel like I like this kid. He’s just making my life difficult. And now it’s like the opposite the thought of anything happening to him. For something him not being happy. I can’t handle it. Because I love this kid so much. He’s still a lot of work. [laughs] It’s an unbelievable feeling of how much I love this person. And this bond is just, it’s unbelievable. There’s nothing really like it. And I’m so happy that that was the end result.
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